3 years 5 months and 7 days -- that is the amount of time that has elapsed since our family suffered a most sudden and unimaginable loss. One minute everything
was fine; we had just celebrated the holidays with our family and friends. The next, my brilliant, loving, strong and dedicated husband was struggling for breath as AML, an extremely aggressive form of leukemia, took his life in just 24 hours. How could this even be true? Cancer doesn’t just kill people in one day! We should have had at least a few weeks to understand this! If I hadn’t seen it happen with my own eyes, I probably still would not believe it.
What could I have done differently that would have saved him? I would do anything, including giving my own life in his place. His was so much more valuable, and to so many more people!
Then there’s that other nagging question: why? Why would God, the universe, or whatever choose this path for us? Why extract such a loving husband, supportive father and devoted physician from this world, when it was THIS world that needed him so much?
3 years 4 months and 25 days -- that is the amount of time that has elapsed since I started attending Stephy’s Place. It was here that I learned that it’s these countless questions that envelop us in the fog of grief. It was here that I learned that I will never “get over it,” but I can learn to live again alongside it. It was here that I learned that it wasn’t only ME that was losing my mind. It was here that I cried, sometimes uncontrollably, and knew I didn’t need to apologize for it.
It was here I discovered the common threads that bind us through our loss: the ability to view everything that happens around us with a deepened perspective, the experience of having one foot in this world and one in the next, and the knowledge that we are FOREVER changed.
It IS here that I feel true gratitude, and have been given many opportunities to give back to the community of people who have experienced great loss. Please join us in our walk OR support our team! Our community needs Stephy’s Place for all of our sakes. Grief is not something that just affects some of us. It’s something that affects all of us at the most unexpected times.