Stillborn, deceased, didn't make it. Some of the worst words you could ever imagine hearing, but no one ever thinks about it, plans for it or even thinks it is possible in this day and age. There is very little research on the matter, less published. Awareness is key. Awareness for research, answers, solutions and results. 

 

September 17, 2015. The worst day of our lives, hands down. Flashback almost 9 months....After years of trying, tests, medicines, etc it finally happened. We were pregnant, and we were so excited, especially me. My wife was a trooper. Never have I seen a stronger woman. She has always been very healthy, vegetarian and took care of herself. Once this happened, she stopped drinking coffee, followed doctors orders to a "T" PLUS. She wouldnt lift anything heavy, ate all organic, walked every day, even sold her bake shop she worked years for to lower stress for the baby. All the blood tests, ultra sounds (which i went to them all), and all the other "fun" pregnancy symptoms/side effects...She stayed strong. 

First trimester ended and we were told our risk was gone, clear sailing from here on out, but this was just a calm before the storm. We planned, and planned. Bought things we thought would make our baby happy, had a shower thrown by loving family and friends. Everything was put together that day, did I say I was excited!!

 

Back to Sept 17. Everything was great, had an ultra sound days prior and it was all looking good. Work was good, came home to see my wife. Decided to go pick up dinner to hear my wife say our baby (boy) hadn't moved much that day and hadn't moved at all recently. So to the hospital we go. We were  rushed back and ultra sound placed. No heartbeat. I begged to check again..Still the same.

 

That was when part of me died. Our world was shattered. Our precious baby boy, 36 weeks in utero, gone just like that. The following days/weeks/months were hard. Funeral, therapy, talking, and no baby boy. No answers to why, no reasons, nothing! No parent should ever have to bury their child. I have always heard that but never understood what it meant..until now.

 

IF there was more information, studies, statistics, training for the doctors..AWARENESS..This may have been able to be prevented. This is why my wife and I are doing this walk/run. For awareness..for research. So no parents have to go through the hell we, and many others like us, have gone through. Nothing will ever bring our angel back to us, but maybe just maybe we can raise awareness, and raise money to help with this important cause. This shouldn't be happening in this day and age with all the medical technology and advancements we have accomplished. 

 

IN MEMORY OF OUR ANGEL -JULIAN LUKE ALEXANDER